What If?


What if I'd been born a bit earlier.
What if I didn't like metal
What if I could be serious for the entire conversation
What if I could say what I feel
What if I didn't always say the wrong thing at the right time
What if I wasn't so nice
What if I didn't think of others first
What if I wasn't so off the wall
What if I cared what other people said
What if....
....What if I was some one else....

But the universe doesn't deal in "what ifs" and never do I. (well appart from when I want to torture myself)

Keratoconus

I finally went to the opticians the other day as my eye sight was terrable all coludy and rubbish, with floating curde (which apparantly is a fractured lens). After a good long hummm and arrrr he told me he thought I had Keratoconus and he couldn't give me any glasses or contacts that would make a differance and to get myself to a doctor so as I could get refered to a Optometrist who would be able to assist me further.

So a few days later I saw my doctor and after he'd read the notes the Optician had given me he refered me on to the Optometrist - the soonist appointment I could get in early October.

And a few days on from that I finally looked up what Keratoco is:

Keratoconus is a corneal abnormality where the cornea becomes thin and irregularly cone-shaped, causing decreased vision. It typically develops between the ages of 12 and 25. Mild cases can be treated with glasses, but most patients require rigid contact lenses to achieve their best vision. Occasionally, the condition becomes so severe that rigid contact lenses do not work and a corneal transplant may be required to improve vision.

Good god man my eyes! my eyes!