Arty Farty

Finished my first T-Shirt printing. Well I say printing but its actually hand painted. I have to say I'm pretty chuffed with the out come for a first attempt, especially when you consider that my artistic talent is just about none existant.
Although I did manage to bleach my finger in the process and get paint everywhere. Hummmm perhaps Alcohol and paint don't mix.

Right I'll do a couple more T-shirts then its on to the banner.

Blearrrrgh


It would appear that I am coming down with some sort of bug thing. I have no energy what so ever and my joints are aching. Also my speech is coming in little burst with pauses in strange places, so I'm sounding a little like Captain Kirk today.
I can't be getting ill now I've got too much to do damn it!

Tired
It's no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy
'Cause every now and then I kick the living shit out of me

I'm so tired of it all. Tired of all the bullshit. Tired of getting up again after every time I'm beat down. tired of working five days so that I can spend two days recharging in order to work another five. Tired of driving home at three in the morning, glancing at the passenger seat, and seeing no one there. Tired of going for so long on my own that I can't remember how long it's been since I was important to someone in that way that we all want to be important to someone. Tired of repeating the same days over and over with no end in sight simply because there aren't any alternatives. Tired of doing the things I keep wishing I could stop doing and not starting the things I keep telling myself I need to do. Tired of being the odd numbered man in the group. Tired of not knowing how to make things better. Or, worse yet, knowing how to make them better but not being able to. Tired of surviving instead of living.

But most of all I'm tired of fucking everything u[ that I've got going for me on a regular basis. Its like I can't accept good things happening to me so I have to go and completely screw everything up by being me.

Last I checked it still says Sort your fucking life out on your to do list. Maybe you should do it, you pathetic whining little cuss.